*~*HaliesBoy Forever And Always*~* (vserenade) wrote,
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Us, the rejected of society

This is a convo i had iwith mike while programming. It describes us perfectly. society can fucking blow me. Ive got Halie and thats all i need.
I Love You Baby, thanks for making the attempt, thanks for trying to make our future happen. I Promise it will. Together Forever. Thank you for always being there and understanding, now and forever, in eachothers arms. for enternity and beyond.
I Love You Halie Marie

convo start sometime before 2
this part ended around 2:30


Bucket Hed Wendy: lol
Soccer Boy 07 06: lol
Soccer Boy 07 06: u know the sad part
Soccer Boy 07 06: ppl dont realize
Soccer Boy 07 06: how smart we actually are
Soccer Boy 07 06: and what we could actually do
Soccer Boy 07 06: were the onews who get swept aside
Soccer Boy 07 06: disowned by society
Soccer Boy 07 06: until we do something that shows them what we can do
Soccer Boy 07 06: good or bad
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Bucket Hed Wendy: yeah
Bucket Hed Wendy: its interesting you brought that up because before erica and me were going out i had this conversation with her and at the end she was like "I think your one of the most underestimated people I know"
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: i hear that as well
Soccer Boy 07 06: you and i have more knowledge than most ppl in college
Soccer Boy 07 06: yet youd never know it
Soccer Boy 07 06: cause of society
Soccer Boy 07 06: were the misunderstood
Soccer Boy 07 06: and therefore
Bucket Hed Wendy: everyone thinks I just dont care or I'm some kinda lunatic because I've got crazy ideas but once I talk about something that matters people are like "woah, thats weird man I wouldnt expect "
Bucket Hed Wendy: that
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Bucket Hed Wendy: i've been misunderstood my whole life
Soccer Boy 07 06: heh
Bucket Hed Wendy: but thats different
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: but the swept aside part
Soccer Boy 07 06: is always the same
Bucket Hed Wendy: but its true though because people tend to htink that just because you might have a disability or something like that your not as smart as the guy who went to harvard
Soccer Boy 07 06: when in fact you in alot of cases are smarter
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea we both at one point were in rosens room
Soccer Boy 07 06: but shit
Soccer Boy 07 06: once i was out of there
Soccer Boy 07 06: and knew the kids
Soccer Boy 07 06: it was like shit
Soccer Boy 07 06: im smarter than all of you, yet im the one that not accepted?
Soccer Boy 07 06: until they need help
Bucket Hed Wendy: once i was outa there i was like "shit"
Bucket Hed Wendy: lol
Soccer Boy 07 06: lol
Soccer Boy 07 06: its a different world
Bucket Hed Wendy: of course
Bucket Hed Wendy: of course
Bucket Hed Wendy: bottom of the barrle
Bucket Hed Wendy: it is
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: doesnt make sense
Soccer Boy 07 06: but like i said society has one medium
Soccer Boy 07 06: they cant accept anyone different from the norm
Soccer Boy 07 06: thats why occasionally u hear about some really smart kid killing himself
Soccer Boy 07 06: or writing a hitlist
Soccer Boy 07 06: or acting shit out (columbine perhaps)
Bucket Hed Wendy: i try and explain it to people about why having a disability is good and bad before and they think im craz
Soccer Boy 07 06: i know what you mean
Bucket Hed Wendy: that was a tad bit different
Soccer Boy 07 06: but to the above
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: its extreme
Soccer Boy 07 06: but
Soccer Boy 07 06: hmm
Soccer Boy 07 06: ok forget that one
Soccer Boy 07 06: but
Soccer Boy 07 06: all the others, are caused by rejection of society
Bucket Hed Wendy: that involved people who were on the other side of the medium and were harassed for it and as a result they did something nobody would expect
Bucket Hed Wendy: lol
Soccer Boy 07 06: and how many more ppl do things that isnt told to the public
Soccer Boy 07 06: thats kept hush hush
Bucket Hed Wendy: most of the time yeah
Bucket Hed Wendy: because "its bad"
Soccer Boy 07 06: exactly
Bucket Hed Wendy: and would ruin the image of something
Soccer Boy 07 06: youve got all therse preppy girls and shit
Soccer Boy 07 06: and guys
Soccer Boy 07 06: and everyone who follows the norm
Bucket Hed Wendy: yep
Soccer Boy 07 06: then you get the people that are above everyone in intelligence
Soccer Boy 07 06: but dont dress the same
Soccer Boy 07 06: dont do the same things
Bucket Hed Wendy: the same thing hold for when some jobs hire people who are mentally disabled everyone picks on them becuse they cant do anything right
Soccer Boy 07 06: dont talk to many people
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: exactly
Bucket Hed Wendy: yeah
Soccer Boy 07 06: its those quiet people that some people try to help
Soccer Boy 07 06: 1 in 100000
Soccer Boy 07 06: = some
Bucket Hed Wendy: the kids who are in their own world and people think their some sort of jerk or gonna do something
Soccer Boy 07 06: yep
Soccer Boy 07 06: the ones that are bullied and teased
Soccer Boy 07 06: from a very very young age
Bucket Hed Wendy: i gotta say i bad them too
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Bucket Hed Wendy: but im the same person who helps them because fuck man
Bucket Hed Wendy: that coulda been me
Soccer Boy 07 06: exactly
Soccer Boy 07 06: we may say shit
Soccer Boy 07 06: but 5 minutes later
Bucket Hed Wendy: at least their out there trying to do something with their life
Soccer Boy 07 06: were there backing them up
Soccer Boy 07 06: back in farmington
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea i may have made fun of some of the SP ed kids
Soccer Boy 07 06: but if someonne from outsife of sp ed said something
Soccer Boy 07 06: i wasnt gonna sit there and let it happen
Soccer Boy 07 06: up until ahlie
Bucket Hed Wendy: yeah
Soccer Boy 07 06: there was 1 normal person that understood me for me
Soccer Boy 07 06: Halie*
Soccer Boy 07 06: her name was Katie Thompson
Bucket Hed Wendy: people never think i have a disability
Soccer Boy 07 06: 4th grade is the last time i heard from her
Soccer Boy 07 06: wrote me aletter, ill always remember one line from it
Soccer Boy 07 06: people never see the inside of you they always see the outside. i see the inside and understand and care about the person inside
Soccer Boy 07 06: that was fuckin 4th grade
Soccer Boy 07 06: same with me man
Soccer Boy 07 06: people never know
Soccer Boy 07 06: yet of course, they still shun you off to the side
Bucket Hed Wendy: exactly
Soccer Boy 07 06: because why
Soccer Boy 07 06: you dont act the same
Bucket Hed Wendy: people care to much about what someone looks like
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: or who they know
Bucket Hed Wendy: they just think im a little "out there"
Soccer Boy 07 06: lol
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: thats one of the reasons i always played league soccer and never payed with farmington
Soccer Boy 07 06: played*
Soccer Boy 07 06: i would never have been accepted by the "normal" crowd
Bucket Hed Wendy: yeah
Bucket Hed Wendy: its hard
Soccer Boy 07 06: very
Soccer Boy 07 06: theres times where i would have given anything to not be as smart and to fit in with everyone
Soccer Boy 07 06: but its not worth it
Bucket Hed Wendy: its almost impossible to always act a certain way or not do something you know you would give it away if you avent told anyone
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: shit
Soccer Boy 07 06: someones going to know you from somewehre
Soccer Boy 07 06: and even if they dont
Soccer Boy 07 06: they will find out like u said
Bucket Hed Wendy: i've learned that if thers a problem with it well thats why theres middle fingers and words like "fuck you"
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Bucket Hed Wendy: oh there always is
Soccer Boy 07 06: im surpirsed i didnt get into more fights in school
Soccer Boy 07 06: there comes a point
Bucket Hed Wendy: thats why i hated middle school
Soccer Boy 07 06: where you dont want to take it anymore
Soccer Boy 07 06: and you come to 2 options
Soccer Boy 07 06: beat the shit out of the other people
Soccer Boy 07 06: or yourself
Soccer Boy 07 06: usually the first
Bucket Hed Wendy: i always took the other people option
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: me 2
Bucket Hed Wendy: sure its a little extreme but it fucking works wonders rigt?
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Bucket Hed Wendy: thats how i got expelled from sorrorws
Soccer Boy 07 06: shit man
Soccer Boy 07 06: i was on first name at dunckel
Soccer Boy 07 06: i was indefinatley suspeneded
Bucket Hed Wendy: huh
Soccer Boy 07 06: which they technically cant do
Soccer Boy 07 06: but they didnt want to expel me
Soccer Boy 07 06: first name basis*
Soccer Boy 07 06: shit
Bucket Hed Wendy: yeah
Soccer Boy 07 06: it comes to a point
Soccer Boy 07 06: where its just like fuck it
Soccer Boy 07 06: im not putting up with this anymore
Soccer Boy 07 06: you hear about these kids that do commit suicide
Soccer Boy 07 06: and everyone talks about how they were the smartest ppl they knew
Soccer Boy 07 06: but no1 talked to them or listened
Soccer Boy 07 06: and you know what
Soccer Boy 07 06: no1 cares
Bucket Hed Wendy: over something like a kid who picked on them in school
Soccer Boy 07 06: until they are dead
Soccer Boy 07 06: yep
Bucket Hed Wendy: they dont
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: sometimes not even then
Bucket Hed Wendy: cause nobody knew the person except for a few people
Soccer Boy 07 06: and no1 made the attempt to
Soccer Boy 07 06: if i could do one thing
Bucket Hed Wendy: and those people are the ones at the funeral saying "man i never knew this would happen, he was the shit man, that kid was going somewhere"
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: you go back and look around
Soccer Boy 07 06: and he has ideas and shit written down
Bucket Hed Wendy: then you see the kid who always dissed on him sitting 4 rows back crying
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: if you search my computer every so often
Soccer Boy 07 06: ive got an idea or something written out that could be grand someday
Soccer Boy 07 06: or something sketched out
Soccer Boy 07 06: its that shit
Soccer Boy 07 06: that people dont know about
Bucket Hed Wendy: thats good
Bucket Hed Wendy: i dont use a computer for those
Soccer Boy 07 06: lol
Soccer Boy 07 06: most of its on paper
Bucket Hed Wendy: i write everything down
Soccer Boy 07 06: yea
Soccer Boy 07 06: computers can die
Soccer Boy 07 06: paper cant
Soccer Boy 07 06: as easily
Bucket Hed Wendy: hahaha
Soccer Boy 07 06: :)
Bucket Hed Wendy: nope
Soccer Boy 07 06: the worst part about it all
Soccer Boy 07 06: is that then you see the people that pick on the kid
Soccer Boy 07 06: and something happens to them
Soccer Boy 07 06: 3/4 of the fucking school is in tears
Soccer Boy 07 06: or whatever
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